the song of june...

i stay awake
here, the last day of june
trying to stop this mind
drawing your face all over the place
trying to stop breathing
for every breathe i breath
start yelling up your name..
again and again..
restless and against the time

i stay awake
for needing to avoid the same dreams
of watching you cry

by the end of june
i feel there's nothing tags me with you
but the memories keep pounding
eventually give me my sweetest nightmare..

i just don't understand
why i still wondering
about things i'll never have
about things i'll never feel again
about you..

i stay awake
here, the last day of june
trying to erase this pain
not just become faint
maintaining this fake smile
to stay just for a while

i stay awake
trying not to shed this tears again
for the fact that boys don't cry
sitting here unattended..
becoming more and more wounded

i don't understand
i don't want to understand..
about why i still drawing your face
it's driving me insane
resisting poker face

they say to follow my heart
follow what my heart's saying
what they don't tell is
which part of heart should i follow
if my heart's torn apart..

this day june ends
leaving me here standing by the night
welcoming the same thoughts again and again
persuading myself to stay alive
for i'm nothing but a creep
so please tell me that i won't feel a thing..

cause i don't want to feel a thing..
for feeling a thing means feeling you...

-dPeR-
300609

Malam Ini

Malam ini aku mengenangmu..
Seperti matahari kutub musim dingin
Seperti hujan pertama di ujung kemarau
Semerdu gema subuh
dan bertahtakan mimpi..

Malam ini aku mengenangmu
ditengah deru angin, rintik hujan,
dan segenggam bayang semu nafasmu..

Malam ini aku mengenangmu
Setegar kaktus menanti hujan

Tahukah jika kamu begitu berarti?

Malam ini aku bersamamu..
Terbang dalam buaian kalbu
Kamu, yang beriku Aquila
Kamu, hujan yang beriku cahya
dan segenggam air mata...

Malam ini aku tersengat sepi..
Aku hanya ingin kamu tetap disini.....

-dPeR-
030609

but i'll be here, always... :)

time shifts this thought
and your whereabout
left me here in confusion
about what left the conclusion
when time shifts your day
i’ll always be there to say
when you’re in grave need
and can’t find assistance indeed
though time set me illusion
put me far from revelation
still i can make you fly
if you can repress your lie
and let me rewrite this rhyme
so even if i can’t rewind the time
i can always be there
with something to share
so i can hold you high and close
the deepest dreams i suppose
so please believe me that’s true…
i’ll always be there for you…

-dPeR-
09/05/09
D-13 :P

Go Nowhere, Please...

close my eyes,,
wipe my lies..
just go nowhere
and stay there..
so i can hold you high
up and away on the sky

trust me your secrets
you’ll find no regrets
and please just go nowhere
cause i need someone to share

every time this heart beats out your name
every single thought might bring a shame
but what i can do is just to linger
to linger for the deathbringer
cause i can’t find you in the sky
and to forget is a big bad lie
but what can i do to have you here
i’m a witless boy looking here and there
asking nothing but some trust
and salvation is a must
cause i can’t find even a single way
and the memories just a fray
just want this reality so flawless
but all i got is everything worthless
cause you’ve gone away
and leave me no way
no single way to recuperate
leaving me here desperate
seeking an answer
and not become glower
cause i just want you to know…..
this soul’s really lost the flow…

close my eyes
wipe my lies…
go nowhere please….
and give me some ease

-dPeR-
09/05/09
D-13 :P

Di Ujung Hujan

duh,, abis ini musim ujan bakal lewat.. mending mana sih, panas ato ujan? kalo musim panas gak bakal lagi ada banjir ato acara basah2an di jalan gara2 lupa bawa jas ujan.. yang ada cuma matahari yang nampang dengan pedenya en sukses menggagalkan smua usaha en proses pemutihan diri yang menghitam gara2 benoa... hiks..kalo ujan kan enak, dingin.. walo musim ujan taon ini gak dingin2 amat yah:P.. tapi musim panas tuh brarti kabar baek buat para penunggang kuda besi.. oke, gak smua dari besi.. bodinya dari plastik.. apa itu? kamu gak bakal ujan2 pas musim panas :D..

en musim hujan kali ini sukses bawa cerita...

di pintu hujan,
tetes yang bawa kehidupan,
awan penghilang terik..
hujan kali ini bawa satu hati..

di pintu hujan,
hati itu muncul,
seindah langit sore,
sebesar anugrah yang pernah kuminta..

bagaiku kau bintang,
selayak puisi..

hujan sekarang sampai puncaknya
saat ku lewati waktu tak terlupa
saat ku ukir kenangan tentangnya

di puncak hujan,
mimpi ini seakan berujung
mengalir merasuk hati
satu bintang di tengah hujan...

di puncak hujan,
kau datang dengan tawa
kau datang membalut membelai luka
kau satu yang slalu kuimpi..

dan akhirnya ku bisa terbang lagi..
kau buat itu nyata...

di pengujung hujan,
saat mentari kembali berjaya
kau tak ada..
tinggal ku disini berharap ini mimpi

di ujung hujan..
aku cuma bisa berharap
satu bintang yang cemerlang
tak pergi saat hujan ini berhenti...

dan ku tak kan pernah berhenti
tuk satu bintang yang buatku sempurna...
tuk satu bintang yang kucinta..

aku sayang kamu...

huff.. i'll be missing our times together under the rain... always... =)

-dPeR-
240309

And Still I Can't...

here i am,,
still alone..
wish for a star to stay
to accompany this solitary night
or at least to make me sure
that i’ll have something to do
even if it’s just wishing
or longing..

I’m sure you’ve heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don’t believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now...

but really i just want you here
to show me salvation
to give me revelation
and all the clarities above
just make me good enough to grab..
so i can hold you high
so i can make you fly..
so high…

follow your heart..
they said..
but i just don’t understand
which part of heart should i followed..
if this heart was torn apart…
and broken into pieces….

-dPeR-
10042008

But I’ll Be There….Always

time shifts this thought
and your whereabouts
left me here in confusion
about what left the conclusion
when time shifts your day
i’ll always be there to say
when you’re in grave need
and can’t find assistance indeed
though time set me illusion
put me far from revelation
still i can make you fly
if you can repress your lie
and let me rewrite this rhyme
so even if i can’t rewind the time
i can always be there
with something to share
so i can hold you high and close
the deepest dreams i suppose
so please believe me that’s true…
i’ll always be there for you…..

-dPeR-
28032008

Sebuah Cerita...

peluh,
peluh di terik tak tersentuh
hanya diam dan membisu...

mimpi,
mimpi ini terserak bagai kepingan
seperti bintang di alam semesta..

hati,
hati ini bernyanyi duri
dan mati berselimut mimpi..

peluh, mimpi, hati..
semua datang dengan cerita
dan di akhir kisah itu ada kamu...

-dPeR-
03012009

The Morning...

i feel the morning breeze
light,
yet enough to soothe this restless soul
light,
yet enough to wake this tired heart
and reminds me of you..

i hear the song birds singing
vague,
yet enough to cool this mind
far,
but feels like close..
and suddenly i think of you..

i see the leaves dance,,
as the breeze goes and stroke me lightly
as the gentle sunlight starts to say hello to this world
and this battered body

a melody of the peaceful morning
when birds sing and leaves dance
when breeze and sunlight warm everyone
a near perfect piece of art
that reminds me about you..

-dPeR-
18012009

through the shattered glass...

through the shattered glass,,
onboard the train taking me far away..
i think of you
i see your images dancing in my mind..
so gracefully marvellous
up away in the furthest sky..
just like a dream..

the night arrives
left me staring through the window
through the same shattered glass,,
alone and wondering
how can this feels the same?
when i'm dreaming about you
and you dream about someone else..
just like a cheap joke...

the night sinks deeper and deeper
and everyone else already sleep..
but i can't shut this eye tight..
am i wrong if i wish for you to be here?
or to give me company
when i'm walking this pandemonium?

i'm here,, alone..
and still looking through the same shattered glass
still wishing,, still waiting,,
though i don't know where will this end
when will this end,,
or how will this end..
this neverending thoughts of you..

i see you flying high,,
i see you even when i close my eyes,,
embracing my imaginations,,
giving me enough will to smile..
though i don't know how to make you land here
to stay beside me,,
i still wishing you're here with me...

and it's true,,
you know that i'd die for you...


-dPeR-
030309

I Miss You

When the night picks me up
in growing darkness
and breezing sadness
leaving me alone
keepin' you out of my reach
but i'm still smiling...

you took my heart and away
away into the blank spaces
that my feet couldn't get into
Leavin' this pain unhealed
and i start crying..
but i still see the sky bright...

now that you've taken it all away
i'm just standing still..
when nothingness lead my way
to where i'll only see you
in my far away utopian dreams..
but still,,
i smile..

when the night picks me up, again
in the same darkness
and frozen sadness..
yes i'm dyin',, i have nothin' left..
but still..
i smile,, just for you..

i miss you...