the song of june...

i stay awake
here, the last day of june
trying to stop this mind
drawing your face all over the place
trying to stop breathing
for every breathe i breath
start yelling up your name..
again and again..
restless and against the time

i stay awake
for needing to avoid the same dreams
of watching you cry

by the end of june
i feel there's nothing tags me with you
but the memories keep pounding
eventually give me my sweetest nightmare..

i just don't understand
why i still wondering
about things i'll never have
about things i'll never feel again
about you..

i stay awake
here, the last day of june
trying to erase this pain
not just become faint
maintaining this fake smile
to stay just for a while

i stay awake
trying not to shed this tears again
for the fact that boys don't cry
sitting here unattended..
becoming more and more wounded

i don't understand
i don't want to understand..
about why i still drawing your face
it's driving me insane
resisting poker face

they say to follow my heart
follow what my heart's saying
what they don't tell is
which part of heart should i follow
if my heart's torn apart..

this day june ends
leaving me here standing by the night
welcoming the same thoughts again and again
persuading myself to stay alive
for i'm nothing but a creep
so please tell me that i won't feel a thing..

cause i don't want to feel a thing..
for feeling a thing means feeling you...

-dPeR-
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Malam Ini

Malam ini aku mengenangmu..
Seperti matahari kutub musim dingin
Seperti hujan pertama di ujung kemarau
Semerdu gema subuh
dan bertahtakan mimpi..

Malam ini aku mengenangmu
ditengah deru angin, rintik hujan,
dan segenggam bayang semu nafasmu..

Malam ini aku mengenangmu
Setegar kaktus menanti hujan

Tahukah jika kamu begitu berarti?

Malam ini aku bersamamu..
Terbang dalam buaian kalbu
Kamu, yang beriku Aquila
Kamu, hujan yang beriku cahya
dan segenggam air mata...

Malam ini aku tersengat sepi..
Aku hanya ingin kamu tetap disini.....

-dPeR-
030609